Several people tell me that I'm perfect for it and it's part of the reason that I've been building up my Twitter followers with a lot of baseball-type peeps. I didn't apply last year because of everything with my dad's passing and I was sure that I was ready for it this year. As I've been learning in my class, though, sometimes the universe has bigger plans for us.
For me, this means not applying this year. I am at a critical point in my relationship with Brendan & in my life. If I got picked, but lost him in the process because I was on the other side of the country unable to work on things face to face, it would mean nothing to me. I would've worked so hard for something only to lose the one thing that is even more important to me: love & companionship. It would be a hollow victory. The hot dogs would be bland, the peanuts & cracker jack flavorless. Every root root root for the home time would be a painful reminder of what I sacrificed.
So for now, I will focus on the important things and start my plan of attack for next year's application: blogging about games, not over tweeting, perfecting video making so I have the best audition video ever and just loving the game from the comfort of my couch, the sports bar or the stadium seats I snagged on StubHub.